Depression Days

Depression Blues – Why do we feel this way? What makes us feel this way? Will these feelings ever go away? I’m sure everyone suffers from “the blues” at some stage, but for someone suffering from depression, it is having the blues all day every day. Does it ever go away? Why do we have to suffer like this? How many times to you think to yourself ‘pull yourself out of it’? How many times do you think ‘if I just start walking every day, do some exercise, think more positive it will all be ok’. It is true, doing this can help, but its just not as easy as it sounds. When suffering from depression you know what you need to do but its just so hard to motivate yourself to do it. You feel so down that you just don’t have the energy to go and do some exercise.

Its very hard to start thinking positive thoughts when you’re down and your mind is feeling so negative. Sometimes you may even make the super effort to do it, you go for a walk for a couple of days, and try your hardest to think positive and it might also last for a couple of days, but usually it seems like such hard work keeping it up and you so easily fall back to the negatives.

Can these feelings ever truly go away? Do we need a friend, a mentor who can help us every day. Encourage us to go for that walk and come on it with us. Encourage the positive thoughts, make us laugh. The problem with that is that people who have never suffered from depression just don’t quite understand what its all about. They don’t know how we feel. They probably think to themselves ‘I wish they’d just snap out of it’, this is how I use to think before I ever had depression. So for someone who doesn’t know how it feels, would they really want to put the super human effort into helping someone on a daily basis.

See where I’m going here. Negative, negative, negative. Thats those negative thoughts in my head, even as I’m writing they are there, there isn’t a way out, there’s always a reason for it not to work.

Well there’s antidepressant medication, lovely medication which along with it come those lovely side effects that sometimes the side effects on their own are enough to make you depressed. Negative again. Medication works, I feel better while I’m on it, but I don’t want to be on it forever. I don’t want the side effects forever or the cost of the medication.

Therapy – doesn’t it feel better to talk about it. It does I admit, get it all out, have a good cry, yell and scream a bit. It does help, for a little while at least. Until something else comes up to make you all depressed again.

Face your demons. Will it work to stand up to your demons, your fears. Do we need to dig deep and find out why we got depressed in the first place, I think this kind of goes against the chemical imbalance in the brain theory, but for some people can this work?

I think I’ll give it a go. I don’t want to be depressed forever, I need to find something that works, I’m going to try to face my fears, face my worries head on.

“Bring it on”.