Depression Days

For some reason I only come on here and update when I’m feeling down.  This is one of those days.  I had an appointment with my shrink this morning and although I didn’t really want to go, I am always glad that I went.  It’s always good just to get things out and talk about things.

He has upped the dose of my medication which is great because I really feel I need it put up.  Life is so difficult sometimes and can be so hard to deal with.  Even the smallest things can just really get you down when you have a hundred of those small things all building up.

I should be thankful that I have a good life, I live in a good country, I have a nice house, I have three great kids and a husband.  I have a great family and the most gorgeous dog.  So why is life still depressing?

Who knows!

In my journey with the shrink I have talked a lot about my past and my Father – or Sperm Donor as I prefer to call him because that’s all he’s ever been.  I don’t know where else to go with that though, I feel like I’ve spoken about it as much as I can and don’t know how else to deal with it to help me be a happier person today.

I guess time will tell if all this therapy helps or not – it’s still early days and I know I’ve had some improvement in some areas, so fingers crossed, with time, I can get through this and find that true happiness that I so badly want!

At the moment…….. C’est la vie – Such is Life!